Feeling Abandoned: Reflections on Psalm 22 and the Leader’s Experience of Divine Distance

Feeling Abandoned: Reflections on Psalm 22 and the Leader’s Experience of Divine Distance

Have you ever felt distant from God in your leadership?

That can be a difficult experience for many leaders, especially those serving in faith-based roles. In Psalm 22, David, known as a man after God’s own heart, expresses this feeling of abandonment when he cries out: "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?" (Psalm 22:1). As leaders, we all go through moments when it seems like God is far away, and that is a natural, though painful, experience.

In verse 2, David shares his struggle, saying: "My God, I cry out by day, but you do not answer, by night, but I find no rest." This is a feeling many leaders can relate to — crying out to God, yet feeling unheard. It can lead us to question God’s presence and care in our lives. We may also begin comparing ourselves to others, just as David did when he said: "In you our ancestors put their trust; they trusted and you delivered them" (Psalm 22:4). It can seem like God is helping everyone else, but not me.

But David’s story does not end in despair. Later in the psalm, he turns toward hope, saying: "But you, Lord, do not be far from me. You are my strength; come quickly to help me" (Psalm 22:19). This reminds us that even when God seems distant, we must hold on to the hope of His help and presence.

For leaders who feel far from God, Psalm 22 offers comfort. It shows us that it is okay to express our doubts and struggles. We do not need to hide our feelings. We are not alone in this journey.

Remembering God’s past faithfulness can also help restore our confidence in His presence. Even when we feel far from God, He is still near. Just as David moved from despair to hope, we too can find renewed strength and purpose in our leadership as we hold on to God’s promises.